Kirjoitan näin pikku journalin pitkästä aikaan ja aluksi suomeksi.

Mitäs tässä. Hengissä ollaan. Töissä käyn, kuten myös pientä opiskelua teen. Tällä hetkellä on menossa yksi erityisen pitkä ja ärsyttävä masennus kuukausi. Joka ei ole mikään erityinen. Koska se vaivaa muitakin ihmisiä joskus. Tosi se on haitallinen piirtämisen kannalta, kun ei haluta piirtää juuri. Olisi niin paljon tehtävää ja monet varmaan odotavat innolla että saisin lupamani työni heille valmiiksi. MALTIA vain ihmiset ja furryt. Kyllä minä ne joskus saan tehtyä. *hymyilee lempeästi*
Tosi olen hiljentynyt MSN:sessä, puhehalutomuuten takia. Joka voi johtua menneen ajan taakse jättämisellä, joka painaa mieltäni. Mutta PERHANA! *murisee itselleen* Minun pitää ryhdistäytyä! Ottaa härän palleista kiinni! ..kuvallisesti tietenkin. *naurahtaa*

En vietä Syyslomaa kuten muutkin. Pidän lomani ehkä viimestään kun minulta loppuu kokeilu työssä oleminen Joulukuussa.

Olin Perjantaina syntymä päivillä.^^ Annoin hänelle synttäri rahaa, että hän sai ostettua lahjansa. Ja kortin. (joka ei ole valitettavasti ollut minun tekemä, kun piirtäminen ei maistunut koko viikon aikana.) Noloa.. Mutta kiitos Ray-sama päivästäsi. ^^ Tulipa ostettua samalla matkalla uuden Full Metal Alchamist manga sarjiksen ja valo-pistoolin Wii-konsolille. (jos olisi vielä joku peli johon se kelpaisi) ^^' Ja vielä "Möröt vs muukalaiset" -elokuvan, jota katsoimme Rayn synttäreillä ja suositelen sitä teillekin, jos tykkätte huumoristista. ^^

Huomenna olisi taas verenluovutus Lempäälässä ja ajatelin mennä luovutamaan klo 14. Eli heti töistä tultuani. Hieman hermostutaa..

Sää on ollut kylmä ja sateinen. Ei se niinkään paha ole. Minä tykkään sateesta. ^^

In english..

Well, well.. Let's see.. I'm depressed and is cold outdoors. Quite interesting, eh? x3
*Crickets*

Oh god I hate Sunday VERY much... My mortal enemy...

Let's begin..

In past then. My life wasn't the best ones. bullied, my grandpa death, heartaches, sorrow, misunderstandings.
I was living with my dreams by better life and future.
Then in November 23 2007. I was met very interesting young lady from DA.
She was so kind. She would listen to that I had to say. She was wise and cares. She also made me laughing. Brought a light to my solitary life. She was very different like other girls.
We settled meeting on the Idea Park mall.
That day was awesome. I was so excited about meeting. I was thinking what a kind person she real was.
I got hard to believe it... But... She was adorable. I was got some problems to hiding my shyness. Oh well... Everything was going alright after all. I brings her back to she home. I can't tell my feeling about that day...
That day was memorable...
After that day... I life changed forever.
I falled in love with her more and more. She was everything to me and I did't care what others said about two as.
Our happiness continued almost whole year. When... Things start goes wrong. ...very wrong.

I am really did't had chances about any of girls long time. Except her, but she doesn't feel the same way anymore, so I decided a while ago to let it be, and just be friends.
we don't see each other a lot anymore.

I HATE GOSSIP!
I wasn't put on this earth to worry about people who have nothing better to do than to judge me by one stupid little thing!
Gosh you guys, people upset me so much sometimes. I mean am I really that bad, because I cared what people thought? Um... don't you think it's better that I try not to listen to people being judgemental or critical of me? I am still nice to everyone, so I have sometime no clue what he/she means. Come to telling me that I deserve to come hated and I hurt my friends? I don't want guys thinking I'm a heartless.
I just don't understand why people say stuff, when I try do something good to others. It's not fair. I can barely trust anyone anymore......especially with my business.
Unfortunately because I had lonely past of my life. Peoples did't noticed me much, so I wanted showed my skills to get peoples noticed me finally. I guess I'm guilty of that too.
I mean sure drawing is harmless, but... *confused*
Is it wrong that I think that our world is so fucked up that no matter what we do we can't fix it again.

I feel that a big Empty place in me.
That makes me nervous and Sad.
However, I feel fine when I meet my MSN friends.
and especially
Thank you all, who still keep me on stand. ^^

I am certainly not one to just hook up with people, I'm too shy to initiate.
Of course I helping peoples who needs help, because I care.
It's kinda sad, like when school is over, going to home, being shy goofy myself, walking down the hall way.. not caring. Watching when pretty happy couple walking past me... *sighs*
I just really... really..wish I had a someone. I just want to have someone to hang out with, stick up for me, talk to me... something.
Oh well, it's been a long day and night, and I must go to school....
This weekend was kind short this time, beacause I had long 11 hours school day on Friday.

please leave me some comments.... something to cheer me up, I'm feeling a little depressed. I guess just feeling like a bad person.

Take care everyone.

Stole this from

Will you answer every question honestly?
Yes, it just depends if you believe me or not.

Have you ever stayed up all night while drunk or high?
Not actually. Sometime I drink myself to sugar drunk, but it's doen't always working.

Have you ever punched anyone in the face?
No.

Do you miss anything or anyone?
Of course I miss everyone and everything.

What makes you laugh no matter what?
Random and crazy stuff XD

Who was the last person you talked to?
My little brother

What do you dislike at the moment?
Incoming final school tests, whats test my skills very harder.

HARDER:

Do you think it is bad to have sex at your age?
I'm now 21. No, but it's up to someone else.

Will you get married?
I dunno...

Will you be doing drugs in the near future?
NO! D8<

Do you lie about your age?
No.

VERY PERSONAL:

Are you happy with yourself?
No.

Would you change yourself for the person you love?
Yes. If she allow to me my free will.

What do you think about when times get hard?
We're screw and we survive together.

SECRETS:

When did you last cry?
When my friend see that terrible dream and makes me feel useless...

Do you believe in religion?
No, but i believe there is god

SHOCKING:

Have you done bad things with your parents near by?
yeah, when I was kid, I wet the floors by water. ^^'

Have you started a horrible rumor about somebody?
No. But peoples understand me wrong always, because I have dysfasia. -___-"

Did you ever fail the school year?
No.

Have you ever been too drunk to remember a certain night?
No. If sugar drunk not counting.

Do you think your future will be a good one?
No, if my love not love me. I must working harder for it.

THE DEEP STUFF:

Do you think you were raised well?
I don't think. I know it.

Do you have a secret that you've never told ANYONE?
Something.

How do you handle stress?
Draw and music.

How would you spend your last day alive?
Do everything what I can do. Talk in MSN, playing and draw. Telling to anyone how important they are to me...

Do you hide things well or do you have a guilty conscience?
Guilty conscience. I hate lied...

If your parents got divorced and you had to pick mom or dad to live with?
My mom.

If you had to choose between having one family member or 5 of your closest friends?
What question is this? I need anybody. My friends and my family...

Do you think you could ever forgive someone who murdered your family member?
Never.

THE LOVE STUFF:

Do you think you know the meaning of love?
I think so.

What’s the most important part of a relationship in your opinion?
Someone who cares, understands, gives time and likes for who they are.

If your parents didn't like the person you were dating, would you lose them?
It's my choice. But my parents just want me to make the right choice.

THE RANDOM STUFF:

Do you spend time with the same people always?
Yes.

Do you think best friends can be replaced?
Heck NO!

When is the last time you were truly happy with your life?
I was truly happy when someone cares and loves me.

Do you think long distance relationships are ever really worth it?
Yes.

What is your favorite color?
Black, red, blue, yellow and green

What do you do when you have a bad day?
Sleep, talk in MSN, draw and playing games.

Do you really think exs can be friends?
Maybe.

Who messaged you last?


If you could pack up and leave your life now to move away,
Nah... No.

Do you fall for people easily?
yes. I'm naive.

Are you quick to start a fight?
No. If someone bully me too much. And if someone try stole my important person/stuff from me.

Do your parents really know YOU?
I think so. ^^'

Lyrics stuck in your head?
Yes.

Are you tired?
Little

Do you own an iPod?
No.

Do You Prefer Regular Or Chocolate Milk?
Chocolate milk is BEST.

When Was The Last Time You Had Starbucks?
Eeeh... Let me think. *thinking* Maybe four years ago.

Do You Think People Talk About You Behind Your Back?
Yes. Good things I hope so.

Why would they?
I don't know. Ask.

Is Anyone In Love With You?
Yes. I hope she is still.

Ever Cry In Public?
Yes.

Are You Currently Wanting Any Piercings Or Tattoo?
Tattoos yes.

What’s The Weather Like?
Sunning, raining and snow raining

Would You Ever Date Anyone Covered In Tattoos?
No.

Do You Pay Attention To The Calories In The Package/Box?
No.

Do You Use Sarcasm?
I not sure what you mean.

Do you get along better with the same sex or opposite?
Doesn't matter. I'm Bi-curious. XD

Do You Watch The News?
Sometime.

Who was the last person to make you mad?
Mine little sister and Brother.

What kept you up last night?
She is nice to talk with.

I'm 21 year old now.
Thank you to anyone!

I have born 17.01.1988